Day 1 - An attempt at being "better"

I hate that phrase "being better"...it implies that I am not a good person, even though I know I am.
I just have these god-awful terrible habits that seem to get in my way constantly.
Somehow when I try to change these habits, I seem to fail miserably...two steps back.
When I try to change eating habits, I feel deprived.
When I try to change exercise habits, I manage a couple days in a row before I get bored.
I'm quick-tempered and a frustrating individual...I'm amazed my fiance can put up with me.
These times blogging and the class on mindfulness seem to be helping my "awareness", not just about myself, but also about everything and everyone around me.

I've got such a long way to go to "happy". Here's hoping I learn to find simple joy along that path.

A Few Things...

Tomorrow, I start over.

I will...

...exercise more
...eat better and smaller portions
...cut out the negative self talk
...meditate
...live mindfully
...budget appropriately
...learn to love myself
...appreciate more
...be my own BFF

There will be bumps and hiccups, but most of all...

...I will keep moving forward...

<3 Happy BFF Day <3

Haha

I suck at blogging. Maybe I should follow my own advice and do the 365 blog like Manda and Kaila. :o)

New life?

So, it's been well over year since I last posted.
I have gotten farther in some areas than others, when reflecting on the vision board...
I'm living in MN and loving it!
I'm back in school!
I'm dating the sweetest, coolest, and most loving guy ever!
I actually feel like I have a direction and my goals are getting knocked off, one by one.
More to come later.

COUNTDOWN!

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NKOTB Cruise

I know... I know...

I am not a New Kids on the Block (NKOTB) fan... Never have been..
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But I have somehow found myself going on their cruise in May.

And a little confession... I am REALLY looking forward to it.
Not necessarily for the NKOTB guys... (although some are kinda cute), but mainly for the sheer random excess of it all...

Plus, I am going with someone who seems to be on a mission to have fun, no matter what... it's nice :o)

Starting My Vision Board

Sharing the start of my Vision Board... yes I know it's more effective in reality. But I have been too lazy to print the pictures, so there!
:o)
To start with... I want to find Balance:

and with that, find Harmony:

I want to deepen my relationships with my family:

And deepen my relationships with my friends as well as make new friends:

I want to be out of debt:

and gain financial freedom:

I want to be happier:

and have the confidence to pursue a dream:

I guess I ultimately want to find Romantic love, while maintaining the love I have for my friends and family:

and would like to own my own place one day in the garden district of New Orleans:

and if/when the universe deems me ready, I would like to have a baby girl and a baby boy (Natalie Elisabeth and Hunter Thomas respectively):

That's the start of it :o)